lost the game...

Today my spring soccer team, the Tacos (? wtf...), lost their 1st game (we've played a total of 5 so far... 2 to go). It sucked. We played against a coach that I really wanted to beat. I can't really explain entirely why I wanted to beat him, I just did. He's kinda cocky and based on how my boys played today and my attitude, I guess I am too. I feel bad for feeling bad. I shouldn't take this spring soccer thing so seriously but it's hard when your used to winning. I got spoiled. I don't care if the kids have fun, I just want to win. That is terrible. We lost 4-1. My own kid kicked a goal in for them so actually, they only scored 3 off of us. Poor Lukas, we forgot his pill today (this makes him a little off and not able to focus as much), his little soccer shorts were too tight and then he kicks the ball into our own goal. I felt sorry for him but that's the kind of game it was. (Last week Lukas played goalie for the first time and he was great). I got mad at the parents too. I said, "whatever other commitments you've made, cancel them and get your kid to practice this week!!"... ooh, mad coach. These parents are a joke. They don't get their kids to practice like ever. I've had 8 practices so far and only once has the entire team shown up. It's usually me, Luke and one other kid. If 4 show, it's an awesome day. What the hell is that? Then, I had to give out little scraps of paper that said "1 free meal" to each kid because the friggen snack parent didn't bring the snack for half time and after the game. Come on people... get it together. I'm supposed to have a parent that can ref... not happening... I needed someone to paint the field (one hour, one time)... I literally had to beg. I had to send 10 e-mails and the final one said... "I am BEGGING...". Finally a parent said they would go. What the hell is wrong with these people? Do they think I am a daycare or a teacher where they just drop em off and that's the end of it? Ridiculous! I said some negative things on the sidelines too. When the other team scored, I yelled out "Dammit!"... (I'm not supposed to say those things on the field). I didn't give the boys the usual individual good job that I do, I still told them they played great but didn't go the extra mile and give each a high five, I didn't tell each parent thanks (for what, I don't know), and I didn't have them all scream "1,2,3...TACOS!!". That's the other thing... the Tacos... the fucking Tacos? What kind of name is that for a bunch of white kids playing soccer? I guess the Chivas is a screwed up name too... the Goats? I did not come up with our team name and I don't really know who did but it sucks and I hate it. I'm really bitter. I need to get over it. These kids are 9 and 10. I'm 38. It's time to move on past the stupid soccer game. I will however come up with a new strategy, starting with not wanting to beat the other stupid coach so bad, giving my kid his pill and then maybe having a few extra bags of goldfish in my soccer bag for the loser parents who forgot the snack. Oh well. No game next week... Easter, I'll have to let this loss fester for 2 weeks... great! I'm going to throw rotten eggs at my team and their moms if we lose again... let's hope we don't lose... maybe eggs will be our next half time snack.